Beans, Greens and Proteins

I've been asking myself recently about bad eating decisions. Unhealthy foods, whose negative physical effects have been blamed for so much of my turmoil in life. I know that certain things (let's say candy, ice cream, bread with butter, assorted sweet, rich or savory items) are not good for my general health, that in combination with one another and a less than active lifestyle have contributed to my current physical form, and that it is a form I am not wild about. What, then, is it about the instant satisfaction of eating such unhealthy things that in the immediate time and place of the meal or snack, overrides my desire to be healthy and fit?
Is it the all pervasive desire for instant gratification? I want to feel good, this tastes good, therefore I shall eat this to feel good?
Is it a desire to buck the health authorities, my dad from when I was younger, the conventional healthy world by saying "I don't care what you think, I do/eat what I want"?
The fact is I never feel really good after eating a pint of ice cream. It tasted wonderful on the way down, but it doesn't sit comfortably in my stomach, the next day I don't feel satisfied. In fact it sits like a lump of goo in my stomach and the next day I feel guilty and foolish. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. So let's change the way I think about things, shall we?
2 nights Daniel said, "we all have this one body to play around with as we want, we can make it be anything we decide to make it." Granted he has an incredible level of will power, but so do I.
And so I'm partaking in the dietary guidelines that he has been using for 2 months with wonderful results. Beans, greens and proteins. Plus yogadance when I like the teacher, kettlebells in the gym, and general activity. Before I take food for each meal, I look everything over and decide what will fit these guidelines. Maybe my meals haven't looked as deliciously varied as they have in the past, but they are all the nutrition I need. Overeating, and eating badly doesn't make evolutionary sense. There are certain things my body needs to survive and those I will continue to provide. There are other things that my mind says my body needs, rewards for good behavior or refuge during a bad day.
"I deserve chips after a day like this," or "I'm not gonna smoke a cigarette, but I want some Mike and Ike instead."
Oh you pesky mind, trying to convince me I need or deserve things that will in the end not make me happier. And who knows, maybe being thin (or fit) won't solve any of my problems...

As a matter of fact, that's a bit of a concern. For years I've been able to function with the idea that all the problems I was facing would go away if I lost weight, that my love handles were the only things standing between me and happiness, ease, popularity and a successful love life. On some level, it feels like that is why I have always resisted weight loss. Because if I lose weight, look good naked, and still have problems, then it means they are more than skin deep and those are a lot harder to deal with.

Let's find out, shall we?