You can be right, or you can be in relationship

that little jewel of wisdom has been informing some of my decisions lately. The John Winthrop Herald, my own creation which paid homage to the Mary Dyer Times, has been shut down by the man. On the grounds that it was offensive, misleading to guests and an unskillful way of presenting my assorted gripes with the program. I'm sorry to say the first amendment is not alive and well in Yogaland. After 2 meetings I worked my way up to getting more or less permission to produce a second issue as long as it is never seen on Yogaland grounds. That means an email. I could do it. There's a part of me that says I should do it, especially since the next Swami Says article would be a shout out to mustache march (of which there are very few participants still in the game).
It is well within my rights and abilities to turn my nose up at the powers that be. I could continue to create satire that would make volunteers laugh and staff cringe. But what would I gain? Micah asked me if this is how I want to show up in the community. The fact is, I don't want to offend people (even if I think they take themselves too seriously from time to time). I can find an outlet for satire in my daily routine, so why intentionally push the boundaries of what is OK?
I love this community. It is an amazing place filled with nearly limitless resources on the path and people the caliber of which I have rarely come across. I want my impact to be a positive one and I don't want the people in charge to have a bad taste in their mouths at the thought of my time here. I don't think the John Winthrop Times would have incited a volunteer rebellion, but perhaps it does add some angst to the pot that is not necessary.
I can be right, or I can be in relationship.

On another note, OTM last night was all about our story, about different perspectives. My initial starting place was that I didn't think I was lovable (or deserving of love). It isn't something I feel all the time, but more and more it feels like that is at the root of a lot of my challenges. We had a little pie and for each piece were asked to look at our statement from a different perspective. I was partnered with Susan, which is great because I trust and feel close to her, so there was no hesitation to go deep and answer the questions honestly. She asked me who the best person I know is, to take their perspective. Maybe it should be no surprise that without thinking, my mind fell on Allie. The best person I know.